Some people said that, it seems like I have all this 'figured out.' However, to be honest, I haven't. I'm afraid of all the choices that I may or may not have, I'm too scared to do anything. So then each day, I sit down, avoid all my problems. There are things that I would love to do, but there are always obstacles and some stupid excuses that come up to try trip me over. It seems like my goals and dreams are either where I could see, but can't reach. Sometimes, I even feel like my dreams are stupid, pointless, childish, and way too cliché. I feel so full of shit, I feel like this is not who I am. So, what do I do? Again, I sit it off, literally, drowned under my own thoughts.
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It's not easy for me to express this thoughts. And I also do believe that it is not simple for you all to understand this either. .
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The fact is, I do realize that some people have it worse, broken home, broken family, lost of love ones, lost opportunities by tragic accident or stolen. And I do feel sorry for that.
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May be, it's just me. May be it's time for me to just 'toughen up'. And just move on with the life that I still have.
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