Sorry you are not feeling well.
Apple, for me to have put you into a position were I was expecting you to spend all this time with me was not fair to you. Even though we have spent months chatting I am still a complete stranger to you as you have not met me in person. I can understand what you would be thinking. That makes sense now to me now.
How can I expect you to completely trust me when we do not even know each other.
I have decided that I will go it alone on the trip. 4 days at the beach and 4 days in Bangkok. If you would like you could come down on my last day in Thailand so that we can meet. But if you do not want to I also understand. I rushed into this with you much too fast and much too soon. I should have given you more time and I apologize to you for that.
This does not mean that we cannot still talk and see what happens. But at this point I am thinking that long distance relationships do not work because you are not face to face with the other person and it is very difficult. Especially if there is a misunderstanding. As we both know it is hard to explain ourselves on a computer keyboard.
You are a wonderful girl and I wish you nothing but the best in your future. You deserve it that is for sure.
Hope you feel better soon
see you later