You ask me,
Why do I want to meet Canadian man?
I don’t want to see him. It’s just before I asked you, I didn’t understand your intention while you’re saying about ‘rich man’.
I want to know you’re serious about me or not? Because you drive me out to meet other man.
Moreover, it’s coincident with this time when the Canadian man wants to see me. I think if your answer will make me feel that you’re not being serious about me, I will be willing to meet him because you don’t care or are not interested in me. I may feel better if I decide to meet him and he also asked me to meet him too. The reason that makes me hesitate to meet him is because I think he’s come from other country and may just want to meet someone to be his friend and can take him to travel, ask several things for his security and to be a personal guide. I think I should be a good host and help him if it’s not too inconvenient. I just think like this and there is nothing else. Firstly, if he wants to meet me, he has to come to Nan Province. And I am worry because I have already had a boyfriend. If my boyfriend knows that I came to see another man, he may feel sick. Actually, I don’t want to meet him because I think that all men on this world are licentious. I hate licentious men and I think that you are not that kind. I like you so much and I don’t think there will be a great guy like you in this world. You make me warm and I don’t fear to be close to you. At present, he didn’t contact me after he talked to me that day and I don’t want to contact him as well. It’s not because I have financial problems so that I want to meet him. That is not the reason because I'm not a greedy woman. If I’m like that kind of women, up till now you might have not seen me. In Thailand, it's not that nobody cares about me. It's not that I have no rich men who came to fall in love with me. They’re ready to buy everything to please me. But I choose to live with dignity and live by myself as I really am. This make I feel serious and stressed now, you know? I'm stressed about the shop and my financial situation. Now, it’s already come to the end of this month, I’m still trying to find a way to keep the shop not to be closed. The closure needs a sum of money to demolish all things in the shop to be as the original room before returning to the owner of the building. Also, I have to clear my existing customers and remaining expenses. When you have a problem that needs me to explain, I’m not good at explaining in English. I feel very stressed when we have a quarrel and don’t trust each other. I’m afraid of your thought. I'm afraid that you’ll stop loving me because I love you so much. I don’t want to lose you because I care about you. If I know that today we’ll have to fight and don’t trust each other like this. Previously, I wouldn’t let myself fall in love with you anymore. I wouldn't contact you. I realize that I’ve so many problems. In fact, I should have no love and would rather be alone. I once told you that I was so happy to know you. Meanwhile, I am suffering a lot as well. It makes me feel bitter sweet with joy and sorrow in the same times.