My son's mother and I were having a fight but, we always had fights that never meant a thing. It was what we did to show one another we care about the course of our relationship. During that time I wasn't thinking nothing like this. I was being selfish and ignorant, thinking that something had to be better than this. On that evening we found ourselves on opposite sides of the couch. Both upset about something that I can’t remember now but, I couldn't remember it then either. I wanted to make up with her that moment but my pride stood in my way. Here it was the last night of the year and we were sitting here upset over nothing but, it was escalating. Finally I turned and told her to leave, it was over. I was being a fool. I thought at the time she was going to fight to stay but she didn't. She left and I felt my heart sink but, didn't know what was to do.