Being down at the bottom is just like you have nothing-you feel like you absolutely have nothing. You feel like you're in the bottom of a hole and its all black and you don't see nothing... you're just trapped (l. 122-126).You're just to the point where everything you hear- like if somebody says anything bad to you, you -it breaks you. It just-you feel totally worthless. And nobody, nobody feels-you can't feel nothing less than that. And it hurts. It feels like you're being spit on by a thousand people (l. 136-139)