That night, I was worrying endlessly.
The location is the bunk bed’s upper bed.
I felt my body heating up just from knowing that Rudi was lying right below me.
After that, I tried to show my underwear to Rudi, but it was all in vain.
I think he is on guard, since there is strangely no opening to show him, and I couldn't reveal my identity.
I can’t really tell whether Rudi was sharp or dull.
From his actions, I got the feeling that he is trying to make me comfortable.
Ugh....
Well.
The first strategy failed.
But, I have a second strategy!
This was proposed by Luke, as a last resort.
"If the first strategy fails, move to the next one."
“Next strategy?”
Luke nodded gravely and said.
"Night crawling."
Luke says that, night crawling, is an etiquette from the southern part of the continent.
A woman sneaks into the bed of the man she wants to take the heart of and ends up in a man-woman relationship with him.
When I ask why they would do such a thing, he answered with ‘I have no idea’.
But, it has been added, and is just good manners to represent the strength of feelings.
“To show the weight of one’s love, this is a very good etiquette.”
“If by doing that he thinks I am a shameless girl, then what should I do?”
The things I learned from Lilia-san were way more modest.
Such things like showing them the thighs, or entwining the little finger.
In the hot days, loosening the area around the chest, but only to the level that it makes the opponent attack you.
To the point that the master won't think of you as a pervert, is what Lilia-san said.
“What’s bad if he sees you that way?”
“I don’t want to. At least not for the first time.”
"Compared to how he sees you for the first time, it’s better to consider how he sees you for the last time."
I don’t want it.
And, I said so.
I said it so certainly.
I don’t want Rudi to think of me as a pervert even for a moment.
But, I'm wavering now.
I just lost my chance.
"It’s simple, just take off all of your clothes and slip into his bed, rub your chest against him and whisper ‘take me’ in his ears."
The hell it's simple.
What would I do if he won't embrace me?
I would be too miserable.
In the first place, I don't have much of a chest to rub.
“You might feel miserable, but either way at least you took a step forward.”
Luke is too positive.
I know.
Though Luke is always playing around with women, there are some even he can't seduce.
Or rather, those women treat him like a snake.
What if... what if I become hated by Rudi?
“It’s because of that attitude that you haven’t made any progress in a year. You can't turn 'like' to love' without risking 'hate'.”