Hi Ueew,
I understand. You were very kind to him, he spoke a lot about that, he loved you very much, was very grateful.
It is hard to know what to say. All of us here have thoughts of things we didn't say or do, and things we could've said or done differently. More we could've done or tried. We all thought he was showing signs of getting a bit better, thought he would go back to Thailand in a few weeks, when recovered more. All are stunned it has gone this way.
Please feel free to contact me anytime. By email or if you want to add me on Line, my id is monodelzen
And thank you Ueew, for all you did and tried to do for Richard.
With love and best wishes,
James