Some of you commented, did Shen An hate Song Ning very much in the beginning? I hope a lot of readers noticed in the first battle at Bleak Deer Tundra, Shen An was stunned as he took her weapon, off her from her horse, grasping, ‘You are actually a lady.’ He gave her back her spear, not without saying the obvious, ‘Your spear.’ Although it is a simple gesture and a few simple words, Shen An has a great deal of respect for the young lady warrior. When he saw her dazzling, debilitating gorgeous smile on their wedding night, he was jolted to a momentary stupor yet again, even if he put on his most frigid face right away, he was undeniably stunned. Her bravery is a very direct hit when he set eyes on the young lady for the first time. When he saw her again, her drop dead gorgeousness gave him another forthright visceral startle. When your emotions are unhinged without abandon, this is what I see as the spark of love. All love starts with having a pleasant surprising feeling for that certain someone. It is nearly impossible to say Shen An did not harbor some towards SongNing, even though they have insurmountable obstacles of a thousand and a million mountains, we could say he did not realize he has feelings for SongNing from the get go. Rather than saying he hates SongNing, he hates himself more for not able to fulfill the promise, staying loyal with his heart towards the lady who saved his life, he hates how useless he is under the wrath of fate.