You do not make trouble for me and you never have in the past. What is a very good sign is that we are still writing to each other. I do not know where our relationship will take us in the future but it is good that we are writing to each other. I may not be making any sense or I may be confusing you in my e-mail to you today but please understand I am not thinking clearly and I think I am going to get emotional again, it is something that has been happening a lot to me the last week