Yes, language and communication it is our problem, not only yours.
ad 1. I am sincere and frank always, not only with you. I am not a liar. I do not like lying and I can not do it. And I think that I have proved you that I am serious with you.
ad 2. It is too early for me to tell you that I will do it. It depends on many things. First barrier is language. And it is very important obstacle. As I wrote you already several times, I can not even understand your writing (as Yesterday).
ad 3. Right now I am alone, after many years of being married. I live alone for 1,5 year in a big house and I do not like it. So, I want to have another partner to live with. But what will bring near future ? I do not know Today !
ad 4. It is obvious that in marriage one has to support each other. But as in poin 2, it is much too early to think about it. Step by step. First step ahead of us is our meeting in Slovakia. I do not want to look behind it ! If we survive to this time, there will be better chance for future. But Today I do not want to promise you anything. And please do not expect that in life you will have only clear situations "black or white". Life is more complicated and in grey colour (not white or black). Very often we have to make decision, not knowing what will it bring us.
Be happy the same way as it was in Bkk our last days. Nobody knows what future will bring us. If we both want to continue our affair, we both should be thankfull that it is not ended.
Last thing Today. If you frankly write " I do not want to invest my feelings to be rewarded in future" it means that you do not love me. Love is uncompromising. Look at Sommai and Jurek. I do believe she is in love with him !