As I walk on stage, I smile and wave at the crowds of people there. I keep forgetting that I'm no longer a part of Shuang Zi. I started to sing my part of Sleep Talking with the Nuest members when all of a sudden I felt like everything was blacking out. I suddenly feel a warm liquid run down my head as I collapse onto the floor. All I remember seeing is Aron and Baekho hovering over me, almost crying as the paramedics shock me.
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My name is Fu Long Fei. Born on May 21, 1988. I debuted in May 2012 along with my bandmate Leo. We were a C-Pop duo named Shuang Zi. We weren't that big but our fans sure loved us. Performing on stage was one of the things I loved most. I sometimes would wonder what it would've been like if I hadn't become an idol. I think I would've just quit on life in general.
One evening, I got a phonecall while in the studio with Leo. It was the manager from Pledis Entertainment. He had told me to pack my things because my company had decided to send me in for rehearsals to see if I was fit to become a new member for Nuest-M. I've heard of Nuest and always found their music to be intriguing. The next day, I left.
As I approached Pledis Ent., I was welcomed by these beautiful girls. After School to be exact. Lizzy and Nana were cute as always. Haha not saying that I have a crush on them or anything. Anyways, as I walk in, I feel daggers being shot at me. I turn and face the blonde guy who's leaning against the wall.
"Hello..." I say shyly as I bow.
He just stares at me, rolling his eyes and leaves.
Geez, so much for a warm welcome. . .I think.
I walk in, looking around like a lost puppy until the manager spots me. He tells me to go into the choreography room and I do. As I walk in, I'm suddenly the only thing everyone focuses on. Everyone kept asking me questions and questions. I didn't know how to respond. All I could do was smile and say "Annyeonghaseyo! Fu Long Fei, Jason imnida!"
I learned a little bit of korean just to speak to them although I'm sure that they speak mandarin just fine.
We practiced one of the numbers, Sleep Talking, for three hours straight. I wasn't exhausted but I felt like I wasn't welcomed. We took a break and I walked to a corner to eat alone. I sigh when I realize that I had forgotten my own food. I rub my stomach, anxious for someone to just come over and feed me. And to my surprise, one of the members kneels down and stuffs a rice cake into my mouth.
"G-gomawo~" I smile.
"I'm Kang Dongho! Otherwise known as Baekho" he says and sits down next to me.
I stay silent for most of the time as he just welcomes me openly. We both suddenly started talking, A LOT. He made me feel welcomed. He's a really sweet and down to earth guy. He reminds me of a giant teddy bear rather than a white tiger.
Practice had finally ended and the others had left. I finally turned off the lights and was about to head out until I was shoved to the wall.
"Move. You're in the way . . ." growled the blonde.
I fell to my knees and sighed. I stayed there as I looked down at myself and decided to go back into the practice room.
I turned on the lights and stood in front of the mirrors that surrounded the left side of the room.
What's wrong with me? Is there something wrong with my appearance? I pondered.
I look back down and hide my face into my hands. I start to cry then and there. I then decided, maybe I should just go home. . .
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