I haven't felt the way I feel about you for a long time and it scares me to face my true feelings because I don't know what to do. The more I think about it, the more I feel the need to tell you something about me that I think you deserve to know.
I'm not sure if you already sensed it, because you never asked me about my status...I am actually married. If you had asked me I would have told you but subconsciously I chose not to volunteer the information to you because I think I'm being selfish.
We fought almost everyday over mundane things and we have not been physical in over a year. I felt hopeless and that's one of the reasons I wanted to travel on my own to escape from reality, to clear my head. However I never would have thought in a million years that I'd run into you. The feeling you gave me proved that I could still feel the way that I do.
I don't have a plan and I don't know what will happen between us in the future but I DO know that I really want to see you again...and I hope you are not taken by surprise by this. However if you don't feel comfortable about seeing me again, please let me know.
It's true what I said...waking up in the middle of the night with a heart wrenching feeling knowing that I can't be with you is the hardest thing right now.