Thank you for your email; it sounds like you’ve been through a lot with your boyfriend and pregnancy! An emotional roller coaster, for sure. Please do get help. Thoughts of killing yourself are scary, and I hope you are able to pull through this. Don’t lose hope, don’t give up on life.
I get the sense that you are stronger, smarter, and more courageous than you know! You are not alone. You aren’t walking this path alone, even if it feels like you are.
Here’s one of my favorite articles, for women who are struggling to move forward after relationship problems:
How to Keep the Faith When Love Hurts
http://www.theadventurouswriter.com/she/keep-the-faith-when-love-hurts-sheblossoms/
Sign up for my “SheBlossoms” newsletter - the sign up form is at the end of the article. I send an encouraging email every week. It’ll help you feel connected and not so alone. I’m all about walking with God, hearing that still small voice, and Blossoming into the women He created us to be :-)
Blessings,