First day of chemo tomorrow. I’m so nervous. No, it’s not about the hair thing even though I whine about it enough. I’m less worried about losing hair and more worried I’m going to lose myself, become one of those hollow chemo patients I see sitting in Saunder’s waiting room, skin and bones. Today there was a girl who threw up right there in the waiting room after her treatment. It was probably one of her first times because she still had her hair, or maybe it was an awesome wig. Note to self, ask where she got her wig.