I'm sorry that email below. I was uncivil to say goodbye, not your fault. But it was my own fault. I agree that fear and cowardice. I live alone all time. I lost a loved. I lost my father, my mother, my best friend and I afraid to love again because I'm afraid of losing again. I admit that I talk to you alone. Every time you e-mail to me. I feel very happy It's a smile on my face involuntarily. And waiting for your mail. And it makes me scared I'm sorry I scared myself.