I studied the holy books of Eastern religions.
I read in these books that man does many
wrong things. I thought, "I will die because of
my wrong doings," but I did not find any way
of escape from them. So I told myself, "There
is no god," and I became an atheist. I began
to do many bad things which became bad
habits that I could not stop. My bad habits did
not help me. When I was alone I felt lost and
my life had no meaning. Then one day in
1972, I decided to kill myself. I walked to the
railway station to wait for a train to come so
I could throw myself under the wheels.