Dear Pung !
Thank you for thinking of me in such a high way BUT NO I am nothing special...only try....
In my youth to be a monk would be a interesting option because I was very idealistic ...but we also have to be realistic...many my sancaras have stopped me from beeing a monk...now as I see some of them have passed but only some not too many....
I love the life and the strange thing as more as I meditate as more I appreciate it and love it...
well the dhamma has protected me in so many to me known and unknown ways that I am very grateful that I can practice it in this life...
but that it came to me might be pure lottery not out of any my own actions I think....
this is in contrast to the theory but sure I am not any higher better or something special in any way that I would qualify to receive this beautiful teaching of the enlightend one....
so all this again is pure speculation...lets be happy in this very moment be aware of every sensation of every thought open our heart to metta for all...so this is was make one happy ...not to speculate around what why or how.....
if you can spare ten days try a goenka course...it is so hands on so practical that it is a good tool for you to deepen your understanding of what ajhan sumedo and others are speaking about.....you will sure come out laughing and lighter but also sure these ten days are work time
and no dream time...sometimes we experience the hardest time of our life in this ten days...pain,sorrow,depression,physical sicness all this can come and go ( depends on one own sancaras believe me I had it all ) but also excitement,and other extrem emotions may also arise sure just to pass once again :-)