you're wrong. Bastiaan is a friend. that's all. I do not have another boy in my life than you. aim is true that it is difficult to live. we are far from each other. When I go home, it is night in thailand. I do not know if I can call you. you have to live your life without thinking about me. I need you to meet your friends, you have to find a job, I want you to be happy. I love you and I think I will always love you but this is very difficult to live because we are far from each other. I'd like you to find someone in thailand and you to be happy. I wish your happiness