Hello Darling,
There are some things i want tell u, and im using mail as i can explain u exactly my thoughts, and so that u can understand precisely, and translate if needed.
First of all, i still think u are a great person, and i’m very happy i meet you. I really loved you, from the first day. I hope you did as well, and that our love was true. You have been very nice, kind, loving, thoughtful, along the way, in Thailand and after too. And I want to thank you for that, you made me happy, truly, and I hope I could as well. It has always been my concern, I tried my best to make you happy, always, and hope you felt it.
But, because there is a but, many times, I have noticed some things that I thought could be source of troubles in our relationship. Things that made me think we are too different. Again, these are not bad things, its just that ME, i dont like, and it make me suffer.
For instance :
- u never do what i ask you. Even if im wrong, if i tell u that i dont like this, you could do for me. I would do for u. When i love someone, I want to make her happy, if u ask me something, i do for u, even if sometimes, i would have done differently. like kissing your friend. ok she is you friends, couldn’t u just tell me ok, i won’t do anymore, for u. I would have done it. If you cannot do so little things, so little compromise, it can never work! I know it.
- and the main thing, i will be honest with you, i dont like my gf goes every weekend in club, play the bad girl with her friends, dress too attractive, drink… for what ? for who ? if you love someone already. I think these are place were people drink and look for girls/men.
I just dont want it. even if u tell me u just dance. im sorry but i can’t.
And I dont want to change you, i know its impossible anyway. And again, it doesn’t mean its bad. its just its not me. U are not wrong, im just different.
And I think you could find someone same u, you would have more fun, i would have less headache, and jealousy.
One last thing, about the visa, u asked if i were glad, of course not. and I will pay you back what u spent.
Do not hesitate to answer this mail, should you have something to tell me.
Armin