I'm sorry that email below. It made me see that I was uncivil to say goodbye, not your fault. But it was my own fault. I agree that fear and cowardice. I live alone, all alone. I lost a loved I do not want to because I'm afraid of losing again. I admit that I talk to you alone. Every time you mail to me. I feel very happy It's a smile on my face involuntarily. And waiting for your mail. And it makes me scared I'm sorry I scared myself.