Another contraction hit and I moaned not ready for the intensity “ooowwwwww owwwww uuugggghhh”. Luka looked so scared, I knew he had never seen his mamma cry. To him she was the grown up that never cried, but now he had to be brave for mama. I gave his little hand a squeeze to reassure him.This baby really wasn’t waiting, I let a contraction pass and needed to decided where I was going to give birth. I decided the bathroom was best as I could still have a water birth and it was easy to clean after. But I knew I couldn’t manage the stairs, the downstairs toilet would have to do.Once in the downstairs toilet, I was feeling another contraction on it’s way I start my deep breathing “huff huff huuuuuuuff huff huff huuuuuuuuuuuff”.This seemed to cheer Luka up “mamma you sound funny” he then starts doing it with me. We both are in a fit of giggles after a couple of minutes, I truly love my little boy.A strong contraction brings me back to the task at hand, I need to get lower on all fours. Again I tried to breath though the pain while Luka joined in “huff hufff hoooooo hooooo oh ohh ooohhhhhh”. I feel it getting to much, I pick one of my hands up off the ground and try and sooth the pain away by stoking. But it’s not like when my baby kicks, contractions can’t be soothed away.Maybe if I sit on the toilet and widen my legs, it will help move things along. I start crawling towards the toilet, Luka sits on the floor watching me. I push myself up on the toilet seat, I feel a contraction squeeze my insides as I push hard using my hands against the cold plastic of the toilet seat to get up and on the toilet. Now I spread my legs and feel slightly better but not much, even though I don’t feel the urge to push I try anyway. It doesn’t do anything, so I check how dilated I am. As I inset my fingers, I feel something shift inside me and a second later I feel a pop and my waters brake over my hand. I am shocked, but try not to make a fuss as I don’t want to worry Luka even more. I realise I had been feeling a lot of pressure building within me, so the release of the pressure felt soothing. I knew that the baby had shifted down into my pelvis, my bump felt lower and sightly deflated. “Mamma did you just pee?” my son asked being as inquisitive as always.I decided to just tell he as I need to give him an answer anyway, “Mamma’s water broke, which it the baby’s way of saying today is the day that we get to meet them. It means you are going to be a big brother. Can you help me and your little brother or sister by being a brave boy for mamma?“Then a wave of pain hit me hard making me gasp at the strength of it, I should be used to contractions as I have done this before but they still take me by surprise.