No; he doesn’t feel confident suddenly. That voice in the back keeps telling him he is not someone who Tanaka can be intimate with; he is not human now. He is more of a machine now and he hates it, but E doesn’t know what to do and only looks down, covering his exposed chest with his arm. “I’m…” he starts, “Tanaka…I…” what can he say in this situation? He wants it, but he’s scared. His body flinches when Tanaka’s hands touch him and E raises his face and finds himself staring at Tanaka’s warm eyes.
“It’s okay,” Tanaka says, pulling E into an awkward hug. Their position is slightly uncomfortable-E can’t move his arms much like this, and right now he wants to hug Tanaka. The same Tanaka who helped him ever since they met, the same Tanaka who taught him there was nothing wrong with him. “Do you want to stop?” Tanaka asks, but E shakes his head. No, he doesn’t- he just wants this to b special because it’s Tanaka.
Tanaka leans forward and kisses his cheek, placing soft kisses everywhere he can as he can as moves E’s arms away, “Don’t hide,” he says what seems a million times more to E. Even if Tanaka is commonly is quiet, that doesn’t mean he doesn’t know what to say when E needs it. “E,” he says and kisses those lips again, biting on the soft lips, pressing until E opens his mouth and he can access the moist cavern. E responds to the kiss, sucking on the tongue if he can to make Tanaka feel good to. Their tongue lap for a few moments until E’s resistance lacks and he moans into the kiss and let’s Tanaka continues long as they can last. Seconds later, they finally need air and part, but another second later, they’re kissing again, while E’s hands grip tightly onto Tanaka and the other is moving his hands to the hem of the pants. The white haired is surprised, and slightly scared, but he remembers what Tanaka said a few moments ago and raises his hips slightly so that the other can remove his pants. Tanaka lowers the pants and undergarments slowly, until they pool E’s legs and he can’t help but smile.