The radiation treatment I did alone. It was always a room full o f maybe five guys. To have to undress in front of them and lay out on that cold table, and they strap you down like you are schizophrenic or something. . . . I will never forget the many mornings I laid there, and my tears came rolling back on my face, and my hair would be wet in the back just from the tears. It was like, oh God, I ’ll be so glad when this is over. I felt embarrassed that they were all looking at me. . . . It was like, oh God, I'm