But May can I ask?
The reason you can't share with your mom and your friends to there?
Especially the mother because she is someone who knows you as well.
Sorry, Or you may ask for advice from her,
and she gave a advice differently to your mind that you expect get?
If is like this. May be possible or not? Because she never knows your needs truly.
I mean, you never reveal your mind/heart to your mother.
Mean Is what you love, or something you hate.
If you've got something you love and you want to be able to truly.
You may need to show give your mother see, to her get to know.