It just feels like noise, all of it. Life just doesn't give you the opportunity to breathe, have a little peace, a bit of silence.... Its all just huge rush. I don't know how many times I've contemplated suicide, how many time I even attempted it. Gosh I am so sad, I am surrounded by people who claim to love me but they can't see it... I smile yes but my eyes don't, they should see it shouldn't they?
So I'm back here and there are a couple of things I need to do: 1)Smile, he's watching. Don't let him see that you are hurting 2)Laugh, they're watching. Don't let them know that u cry 3)Cut, it'll take away the pain while you are around them. 4)Pretend you don't care that he doesn't love you 5)Pretend you like being invisible 6)They just must not know that you wanna die