You know what Lah?
I went through absolute hell for a while. Enough to consider taking my own life.
I'm in a good place now and I've decided I'm not going to put myself in any situation ever again that may make me as low as I was then.
Never ever again.
So to have this discussion isn't good for me and probably not good for you either.
So unless you have something good or nice to say, don't say it please.