Seriously I feel like tearing up so bad because this was the first Thanksgiving I’ve spent the entire day alone. I’ve been on my bed for how long now. My mom just made food and left it on the table and left for work earlier in the afternoon. My dad leaves early in the morning for work and comes back at night. My sister has her own family now and she doesn’t even send me a little “I’m thankful for having you as my brother even though we were at our differences when we were young.” Not even one family member.
I’m home……alone. Again.
I never thought I would say this to myself, but I’m so miserable. Maybe it’s karma even though I have been doing lots of good things, such as donating and volunteering for good causes.
I realized maybe no wonder no one can depend on me…no one trusts me.
I’m nothing close to perfect to anyone’s eyes. I guess that’s who I am…I’m just that simple guy who wants to please everyone. I’m so tired…. For once I just want to hear someone’s words and say… I’m so proud of you…. I love you… I just want to sleep for a long time.