Calm down, let’s try putting the circumstances in order. The change is fast, I need to calm down. To calm down, I think back.
During my last mission, I dealt with the target but was fatally wounded. Escape was hopeless, I chose to destroy the building and myself to remove the evidence. I even remember the feeling of getting hit by the falling debris. After that, I blacked out.
When I woke up I was a baby.