It was sunday, just when SXM was sitting with QianHui in a mcdonald, sxm stared out through the glass window and think of yy. All he wanted was to scold himself stupid and childish.
"What do you want to do after this?" QianHui suddenly speaks, makes sxm turn his attention back to QianHui. QianHui is a normal looking girl, with a cute character. Lyy said that getting such normal girl for him is more than enough. If she get one prettier girl to date him, it will not be compatible. Now because of lyy these words, have make sxm angry inside. He felt that his appearance is consider good looking. Why she say such thing!
"Later i will go home straight away" sxm reply Qianhui.
"So early? Why not let's go for a movie?"
"Ah?... Ok, what movie?" Sxm asked.
QianHui did not reply. She stared out the window. Sxm follow the direction where QianHui stared and saw yy with a beautiful lady. Yy took a quick glance at the two in the mcdonald , and dissapear with the lady in the crowd.
Sxm wanted to go into the crowd but it seems that it is getting late. Sxm was thinking, who is that lady yy with? He have never see before. Was she yy's girlfriend?
Suddenly sxm remember that if yy have a girlfriend, then he will need not be trouble by these whole silliness! Can breakfree. But now, this know in his heart have become more and more tight. Qianhui saw tha sxm face have became pale, she was shocked.
"What happen? Are you ok?"
Sxm nodded.
" i think i could not watch movie with you today. Let me send you home"
Until after sxm sent qianhui home, there came one sports car stop right infront of sxm. Sxm saw yy came down from the car.
He could not help it but to start to question
" i don't even have a motorcycle, just you... You drive a sports car??!!!"
Yy ignore his questioning. He grab hold of sxm's hand and throw him into the car. Sxm's wrist was hurt.
"Very pain! What do you really want?! Why are you here?"
He felt that yy hold his wrist even tighter now. Sxm keep quite. He just wait and let yy drive. The car was calm and quite....
Sxm's feeling now is like the waves of the sea. It is not because that he is have car sick, but because when he try to steal a look at yy who is seriously driving with a frown eyebrow, he was frighten. Yy seems look as if he is ready to kill.
" you found a girlfriend?"
Yy finally said. He as always being straight forward.
"Yes"
Yy grow even more angrier. This time, he grab tight of the car steering.
"Wtf! You have the nerve to say yes and admit it!!!"
Sxm first time heard yy using foul language. But he is not afraid. He proudly reply,
"Why can't i say yes? Why can't i admit? You are a nobody to me. Why can't i have a girlfriend? You, you also can have one huge boobs girl with you, why can't i?"
After sxm finish saying, yy stop the car at a quite place. Because yy stop the car too fast, sxm was shocked and really wanted to scold yy.
"Who am i to you?" Yy stared at sxm with eyes slightly close, he move his body a little closer towards sxm.
Sxm seeing these kind of stare from yy, he starts to get goosebumps. He try to backoff when yy lean forwards.
" am i not the person that you like? Didn't you said that you like me?" Yy pinched sxm's chin.
"Me...when did i said that?" Sxm blushed after what yy said.
"Is that true? Want me to help you remember?" Yy push sxm's seat way back and put down his seat to the back. He turn his body and press onto sxm's. He move close to sxm's ears and blow air into it.
Sxm's head was total blankness. He.. What does he wants to do? Is he planning to do what lovers do? I thought yy likes girls... Is he using this position to punish me?
"Let me go" sxm struggle to sit up.
Yy put in more strenght now. He is very angry. Just few days ago, this man infront of him have admited that he likes him. Today, unbelievable that he bump into him having a date with another girl! What does he things i am?! This flirty little rascal!
Even yy do not make it clear to himself why in the world he is so angry about! What happen next, he himself also have never thought it will happen.
Sxm continue to struggle
"What do you really want?"
"Punish you. This is the result of you finding another girl! I want you to remember, never ever forgot this kind of pain. See how will you ever able to find girls in the future!"
Yy shouted at sxm. This man under him have cause him to loose patient.
"What do you mean? Only you can find other girls? I can't? I will go and find girls and let you see! One girl one month. One week one girl, one day one girl!"
"Is that so?"
Yy remove sxm's pants in a very rough way. He uses both of his hand, one to hold sxm's head and another to unzip his own pants.
No loving foreplay, no kissing.
He inserted his into sxm's.
Sxm cried out of pain. Yy to was in pain.
Yy wants sxm to remember this pain. And also he wants himself to remember it too.
"I am bleeding" sxm said.
"I told you. This is your punishment"
Sxm was confuse. Beside pain, he have just did it with yy. They have just did what lovers do...
He did not hate this guy that have just force himself into him. He felt he is full of love right now... He even lost his virginity to him... While he was thinking all of these, he fainted. He fainted because it was too painful.
When he wakes up, he is still in yy's car. The car now is infront of his house.
Seeing that sxm wakes up, yy coldly said
" wakes up? Faster get down and go home"
"Wtf! You just force yourself on me! What kind of attitude is this?!"
"Are you getting down or not?"
"You want me to walk home?"
"If not? You want me to carry you home and meet your parents?"
Sxm hurried get down. He is not good at words fighting. But this attitude of yy are very unacceptable.
Actually for yy, he was inshock too. While he was waiting for sxm to wakes up, he looks at sxm, he do not understand why he did it with him. He felt that there is a need for him to go home and get things straight. Sxm reached home. His parents was watching tv. Seeing sxm came home looking haggard, they was concern and ask
" are you ok?"
" when i came home, i pass by a construction area and i was hit by the tools there" sxm hurried upstairs and went to his room. He lay on his bed, cover himself with his blanket. He wanted to give himself two big slap. He is angry not because he was force in by yy... But he was angry because of how yy treat him after that.
Over the other side, at yy's house living room. The tv was on but yy didn't watch it. He recap everything, all the event that took place and make a summary of it. He realised his feelings towards sxm is not just likes to make fun out of him... It is more than that.
Tonight, sxm was very sad, until he fall asleep. Yy was sitting on the sofa for one whole night.