"You do this and it'll prove that you are nothing more then a worthless piece of shit and I didn't raise any pieces of shit. I raised a man and you'd better start acting like one!" I sighed knowing I lost the battle. "Now you will cancel the abortion and you will go to your room. Tomorrow you are gonna talk to your coach. If he tells you to quit you will. If he allows you to stay on the team and be on the sidelines you will do that."
I sighed again. "Yes sir." He pointed towards my room. I stood and walked off. I went into my room, closed the door, and flopped onto my bed. I called the clinic and canceled. Thankfully they never asked why I canceled. I put my cell aside and looked online to find an OB GYN to care for me and this baby that I am gonna hate. I am sure of it.
It's been 2 months since my parents learned about the baby. I was kicked off the team to keep the baby safe. Not that I really care. Matt has been avoiding me ever since that day. I barely look pregnant now. I look like I did when I found out. The baby is healthy and everything I just don't show much. He probably thinks I aborted and hates me. But there is nothing I can do about it now.
Bri and Zack have started dating. Zack tells me how Matt is doing. And each time it breaks my heart. I miss Matt. But he refuses to talk to me or answer his cell if I call or text. He has blocked me from his messengers and removed me from Facebook. I try to message him anyway I can to tell him I kept the baby but he ignores me.
I had enough. I have to tell him. I got a piece of paper from my binder and wrote out a note.
Matt,
I know you hate me and all but you need to know.. I'm still pregnant. I never aborted. Due to your call to my father I told him and he forced me to keep it saying if I didn't I was a piece of shit. My parents hate me now. But that is not the point.
I still love you Matt. I always will. But you have a right to know your baby is alive and well. I'm gonna have Zack give you this letter and I hope your read it... If you don't... I don't know what I will do. But please Matt... Give me another chance.
-Jimmy
I put the letter in an envelop and sealed it with my necklace inside. I sighed and put it in my bag for when I see zack at school.
~*~*~*~
I sighed sitting in my doctors office. I was in my jeans and shirt. Luckily I only needed to go up to pants sizes and 1 shirt. Not too bad. I waited for Dr. Lily Turke. I was kinda impatient. It's just a sonogram. I wanna get it done and go home. I have many better things to do. Hell even doing my homework is better than this. There was a knock at the exam room door. "Come in." I looked over as it opened. I was shocked to see the green eyes I have missed. "Matt..."
"Hey Jimmy... I... Uh... Zack gave me your letter. I read it. I was doubtful He told me about your appointment so I came to see for myself..." I nodded. "But... If you are pregnant why are you not showing at all?"
"I am. It's just minuscule. I never got rid of the baby though... Dad refused to let me even though I was gonna pay with my own money. He said I got into this and there was no way out but to have it and raise it. I have a sonogram today. I'm waiting for my doctor. You can stay if you want." He nodded as he closed the door and walked over to me.
"So... Is it ok and everything?" I nodded. "Good. Ok." He seemed nervous around me now. Awkward. I sighed knowing I had ruined things between us. I looked at my stomach which barely pushed my shirt forward any. I twiddled my thumbs waiting. Where is she....
Just then the door opened and she walked in. "Hey Jimmy. You brought a friend along." She shook Matt's hand. "Hi. I'm Lily Turke. And you are?"
"Matt Sanders the father..." she was shocked at first then nodded.
"Pleasure to meet you Matt. And I am glad you are here for this. Jimmy is getting his gender ultrasound today." I unbuttoned my pants and pushed them and my boxers down to just below my pelvis. I lifted the hem of my shirt to below my chest. "Used to the routine Jimmy?"
"No I just want to get this over with and go back home." She frowned but obliged. "So what is it?" I asked after a few minutes.
"A girl. A healthy baby girl." I nodded. "She is growing correctly and is gaining the right amount of weight. Do you want to hear her heart?"
"No thank you." She always asked and I always refused. I don't want to get attached. I refuse to get attached. This little girl has ruined my life for all time. I can't do basketball anymore. I can't get a scholarship for college. I probably won't even be able to pay for college! All because of this... This thing growing in my stomach without my consent or permission.
I got home and went to my room. Matt for the time being went to his house I guess. He left after me. I got into my room and went onto my laptop. I had just logged onto my messengers when a window opened and my computer beeped. It was Mattie.
M.Shadows: Hey Jimmy. Can we talk?
TheRev: Sure. What's up?
M.Shadows: So... The doctor gave me a file copy of all your info... I read it. I know you are being forced to keep the baby but... I still... I love you...
TheRev: Really? Even after everything?
M.Shadows: Yes... But it will take a while before we are what we were again. I still am upset with you for trying to kill our baby.
TheREv: I know Matt... But in truth... I still don't want it. I'm being forced to raise it. I am being truthful with you. And I hope you understand that. If I get the chance I am gonna give it to you or give it up for adoption.
M.Shadows: I see... Well there is nothing I can do to stop you... I guess we'll work something out...
TheRev: Yeah... Wanna come over? We can play video games and pig out on junk food.
M.Shadows: Isn't junk food bad for the baby?
TheRev: IDK... but I like it.
M.Shadows: Ok. I'll be over in 30. Have the Nachos ready.
TheRev: Ok. Bye
M.Shadows has logged off
I sighed putting my laptop aside. I looked around my room thinking of what to do next. I sighed and started to clean my room a bit. Then I remembered the request for Nachos. I went to the kitchen and got the needed ingredients. I started to make the Nachos right as the doorbell rang. I sighed and walked to the door. I opened it and gasped seeing Zack's little brother Johnny. "Jimmy? Can I come in?"
I nodded. "Sure... Is something wrong? Is everyone alright?" He nodded. "How did you get here?"
"I walked." I nodded as he plopped onto my couch.
"You're 7. Anyway, what's up?" I sat by him.
"Me and Zack had a fight." I looked at him urging him to continue. "I was playing on his laptop then it fell and the screen broke... He yelled at me saying I was a little shit. I didn't mean to do it... I just was playing a game."
I nodded. He looked so sad and pathetic. I pulled him close and hugged him. Soon enough he started crying. I just hugged him. "I know you didn't mean it Johnny. I'll talk to Zack later." He kept crying. I looked down when he got silent and noticed he fell asleep.
I laid him on the couch and covered him. I went to turn off the Nachos and wait for Matt's arrival. Soon enough the doorbell rang. I opened it and smiled. "Hey Matt. Come on in. And don't be too loud. Zack's little brother snuck over and passed out on my couch." He nodded. I lead him to the kitchen as I got out the Nacho Chips. He had the Nacho Cheese bowl in his hands.
I smiled leading him to my room. He sat on the bed and I called Zack. "Hello?"
"Hey Zacky. Are you by chance missing a baby brother?"
"I don't think so... Why?"
"He's passed out on my couch. He came over and said you and him had a fight. He said you called him a little shit. I hugged him and he cried himself to sleep." I heard Zack sigh. "Zack I know he is sorry."
"Yeah... I was just so frustrated.I exploded. I thought he ran off to his room." HE sighed again. "I'll come get him soon ok?"
"Yep. It's just me and Mattie and your brother here. He's on the couch. Me and Mattie are in my room for Nachos and video games." We talked a few more minutes then he hung up. I looked at Matt and smiled. "Hi."
"Hi. So can we maul the Nachos now?" I nodded and he chuckled. We ate them and played car racing games. After a while I paused the game. "Gimme your hand." Matt did as asked. I put his hand under my shirt against my stomach. The baby was kicking fiercely. "Do you feel that?" Matt gasped then nodded. "That happens all the time. I never get a reprieve."
"Damn... Strong baby." I nodded and we snuggled as we played.
~*~*~*~
I sighed as Month 8 rolled around. I am sitting in my Math class dying of boredom. I still barely look pregnant. I must admit ever since Matt and I started talking again I think I have started to love this baby... I don't know if that is really love I feel but still. Wow.... Who knew I would fall in love with it.
Month 9 has arrived..... I barely sleep anymore. This little girl forbids it. She never lets me sleep at night. Easter was a few days ago. Matt brought me a chocolate bunny with chocolate eggs. My lovely angel. He's awesome. I surprised him with a ring hidden in a plastic Easter egg. He said yes and we made out on my bed.
Now I just am done with being pregnant. I want to have this baby and be skinny again. Well Skinnier. I still look like I'm like 4 months tops. Kids at school are shocked when I tell them I'm due any day. I seriously went through my whole pregnancy with no one noticing until now. It's interesting.
So now I am in the library doing homework on my laptop. Normally I have gym class but I don't have to do that anymore. Lucky me right? I'm looking up info for my Essay due next week. I have been feeling these weird cramps all day. They come and go and I have found them quite annoying. Then I felt it.
There was like a snap inside me, then my water broke. I gasped in shock and looked up looking for the school Librarian. "Mrs. James?"
She walked over. "Yes Jimmy?"
"My water just broke..." Her eyes