“Why should I go?” Yin Zi’s tone sounded somewhat rigid, his long eyelashes hung down his eye, and his smile contained a hint of contemplation.
I quickly grabbed onto him again and said, “Didn’t you come to find me? We can leave together, to Xuan Qing Palace, and live the way we used to okay?”
“Not everything or everyone has to revolve around you,” Yin Zi shook away my hands again and slowly asked, “Back then, after you left Luoying Mountain, did you even think about me? You left for such a long time, did you come look for me even once? When I fell into the hands of an evil demon, where were you? When I was wounded all over, hovering between life and death, where were you?”
I didn’t expect these words to come from Yin Zi so I was a little alarmed, and hurriedly explained, “I thought about you! I also went to Luoying Mountain to look for you! But you weren’t there…..I…..I couldn’t find you…..”
“I’m afraid you just didn’t look carefully enough.” Yin Zi’s voice was bitter.
“I’m sorry…..it’s Miao Miao’s fault.” Hearing his rebuke, I lowered my head in shame. Wanting to say that I couldn’t just casually leave the heavenly realm, and that after the destruction of Luoying Mountain, I didn’t know where to find him, but I knew that none of these excuses were acceptable.
Because I really was just waiting. I didn’t do anything for him, nor did I think about ways to find him…..
“On the day that I escaped, I encountered Crystal Jade Fairy, and was brought to the heavenly realm to become her apprentice as well as having my wounds attentively taken care of. She did everything she could to take care of me.” Yin Zi smiled and stared at Crystal Jade Fairy who was beside him. Her anger had suddenly become gentleness, and she no longer had that threatening and imposing manner from earlier.
“What can Miao Miao do for you then?” There was a burst of sadness in my heart.
“You can’t do anything.”
I didn’t give up and continued to ask, “I can get you the gem among gems…..”
“I do not care for it.”
I hesitantly asked again, “I will be obedient and listen to you in the future. I won’t fight with you, I won’t hit you, nor will I force you to go and catch me fish…..okay?”
“I don’t care.”
“Then…..then…..you really don’t care about me anymore! I will be angry! I will…..I will go and shatter all of your gem stones!” I finally could not help but roar out my feelings at him.
“I have already packed and hidden away all of my gem stones.” Yin Zi was calm as ever.
“I’m sorry…..Miao Miao is wrong, I will never dare to not look for you again…..” I pulled onto his clothes and whispered.
“Is there any use in apologizing now?” Yin Zi pulled away the fabric from my hands and went to Crystal Jade Fairy.
I watched as he turned his back to leave, it was so familiar yet distant. I could no longer hold it in and let out a pained cry, and loudly asked him one more time, “How can you forgive me?”
Yin Zi only turned around, looked at me, and gently smiled. He then flew up to the tree where Crystal Jade Fairy was, and softly said, “It’s getting late, you shouldn’t agitate yourself over these two children. The earlier we return, the earlier you can rest, and wasn’t there a new qin book that you haven’t familiarized yourself with yet?”
“Whatever you say then.” Crystal Jade Fairy’s face had a hint of pink and then walked away with Yin Zi, but before doing so, she turned her head to tell me, “Just because you are beautiful doesn’t mean all men will circle around you, when you go back, you should read and study more books.”
Is it because Miao Miao can’t read…..that’s why Yin Zi despises Miao Miao…..no, Yin Zi isn’t that type of crow.
Listlessly hanging my ears, I stood there thinking for a long, long time, until Xiao Zi finally hugged me. I didn’t expect that at this time in the evening, there would be pink fluffy clouds in the sky and the lively scene of numerous birds noisily returning to their nests.
Looking around, I suddenly found that at this time, Yin Zi had spread his wings to fly into the sky, leaving a helpless and lonely feeling within me…..
Everything is all my fault…..
But, in this world, is there a medicine for regret that you can eat?