I'm glad I make you smile. You made me smile and the memories I have of that make me smile now. It sounds like your son is not with you now. Keep in touch with people via phone. Structure your day and work toward some goals so you won't get lost in your depression, but, can hope for new plans and opportunities. Please take time to meditate. I pray that neither one of us will be overwhelmed by that saddnesses in our lives now.
I may see a doctor soon over this sleep situation. I can't take tranquilizers because that makes breathing symptoms worse. Thing is, it's a lot my place that is contributing because of mold in the air. I do much better outside and in the gym now when I exercise. I'm just telling you this not for you to worry, but, to let you know that tom knows when to get help and that I won't let my health get real bad. I'm looking for a new place and have only 1.5 months left on this lease, so I can stick it out if I get medical treatment.
You said you were dreaming which means you're getting sleep. That's good. Watch you health please, especially now when you are under stress.
Tanya: you have both an inner open childlikeness that's so warm to people; you also have an inner strength that I see come through in for you during difficult times-the strength of an adult that knows and has felt pain that makes them wiser. The child wants to run and hide. My child-side does. The adult faces the future and both its promises and dangers in the unknown with courage and strength. You have these qualities to go with your child-side. Have strength and courage because your life will be a blessing to many in the future.
Love and miss you.
tom
ps.
please send my some pictures of you from all those you used to take. thanks