Beloved jane, Im glad you can find such happiness in the words I speak. If not for you, there would be not enough beauty in my life to speak them. Poetry is something I have never really enjoyed, yet it always came to me naturally. Come mid junior year though, i began to find a deeper understanding and connection to it, the beauty of the art-work that it is, and the sentiment it brings forth. My entire life has been based on emotions, governing my everyday decisions... This being said, I believe that is why people can find compassion in me, and me within myself, and I turn this compassion into an existing, real life form.. Music and a deeper appreciation for art and life, and how they work together so well, almost like symbiosis. You my dear, have only made a weld to the connections between my heart, soul and intellect. Opening up doors that weren't there, ideas that I may have dismissed earlier, giving way to new spots in my heart that I hadn't known existed. I've always thought I was selfless.. but up until march... I was selfish in many different ways. Realizing that, i have changed but, you helped me realize that. I thank god for this, and I thank you for being such a compassionate person as I. I can see right into your heart and soul when you look at me, I can see the held back emotion, and the pent up words that you feel might be too much, or even just that hello that you didn't say that's just eating you up, to the cries that haven't been, because you were trying to be the stronger person at the time, I see this in you only because you open up to me, sub-consciously, as I open to you on the same level either conscious or not of what I'm doing. I love you Myrtle Jane wink emoticon You make so much more of a difference than you may ever know, and mean so much to me.
I have always been the person to help or support others, so when it comes to my best-friend and dearest love, I will have nothing but supportive arms, and listening ears. Although this is sad, it hurts everyday worse and worse, I find strength in exactly what weakens me You smile emoticon And god of course smile emoticon.. well, Now anyways wink emoticon How do I express to you how much I feel for you in a different way than before? what do I do now that you're so far away? I'll just swing on, from vine to vine, doing what I can, making the man i want to be one day. With you closely kept to my heart soul, and mind everyday. with only the purest of love from every reach of my heart for my dearest Jane. Tarzan (Austin lee, babooshka, baby-boy