I told you the first time that I have chatting,lying,and pretending us I don't want to pretend that am happy with you about all the infedality of real future you are not showing and plan with me that why I try to stay alone and live my old passed life of singleness rather planing and bulid relationship with you when you are not serious with me though I miss you so much but I have to alway stand and be my true and honest man