Hello my very dear friend,
I feel we are already very close friends and I am so happy. I never felt as happy as now.
My dearest Saowanee, when I look at you I do not believe my eyes. You are a lady , a real lady
you are a great mother and a great friend for me and a great person as internal beauty. To me you are a perfect woman from all sides. saowanee , I like you more than you can imagine.
But I am afraid. Not afraid from you but afraid about you. I will kill my self rather than hurt you.
I am a very peaceful man and love all people, I never hurt any body.
I read in your profile , you are seeking a man 45- 64 , so age wise I am acceptable.
you wrote also Seeking For : Dating /romance, which is what I am seeking . No marriage..
To day you asked me a question which made me afraid, again not from you but about you..
You asked if I have a woman on TLL , No I do not have . and you said , I am lucky woman.
This worries me because we may fall in love. I have a big problem regarding money.
Thank God I do not want any thing from any body, my net salary is more than 6000 USD/month. But most of this goes to Lebanon to educate my grandchildren and support my family. You saw the news, always problems in Lebanon. Salaries are low and I have to help.
My money problem will prevent me from getting married. I have to be honest even though you did not seek marriage in your profile. My fear is you may ask me to marry you and I cannot afford it. I cannot support a wife. I will never lie and run away at the last moment. I rather die than hurting you.. May be I can afford to visit but that is all I can do.
I put my case in front of you. You decide what to do. I will do exactly what you ask me to do.
Either we continue together and communicate from far away ,
or you decide to stop which will break me but I will accept it.
You want me to be honest, I will be honest, I never felt I am attracted to a lady as I feel now attracted to you. You have made me so happy in the last 2 weeks. If you want to continue,
I promise I will never look into the eyes of another woman, except your eyes.
If you want to stop, I will respect your decision ..
I feel my head is going to explode, but I have to write this and be honest with you.
I do not know how to finish this letter, what to write at the end.
But I can say I had a 2 weeks happiness.
Thank you my dearest lady