After she hugs me for a while, she starts patting my back. Without me noticing, it somehow become like it was me that is comforted. I kinda feel embarrassed from it.
Nameless-san then gets up. She then fixes up her messy hair. And with that, she returned to (almost) the usual herself. But the trails of tears are still there in her cheek. She wipes it up while smiling sheepishly then lift me up, and make me sit in her lap while she herself sits in the bed.
“If I think back about it, it might be said as a hurtful. This self was having a promise with someone”
“…… Promise?”
“Yes. a promise to someone close to this self. But that promises in the end became impossible to fulfill. But even so, I still can’t give this promise up. This self becomes an adventure is for such purpose”
“Is that so…… that close friend… is that person someone important to Nameless-san?”
“That person is important. But this self relation with that person haven’t yet become like your father and mother which being attracted to each other like that. We can’t have that kind of relationship but this self really respect that person. That person is a being that live soo far away that it is impossible for this self to go meet him but for this self, that person is a really important friend. Whether he thinks the same toward this self, there’s no means for this self to know now”
She talks in a vague way which make it hard to grasp, but she really expresses how important that promise is for her.
Even I also have such regretful unfulfilled promise. In my previous life that is. I promise with those guys from the guild that I will be together with them forever until the end of world. Because of that account hack, even if I wished to, it already steal my ability to fulfill that promise. I as the person who was always get depended upon as the guildmaster suddenly become the one who put a weight on other people. I can bear such feeling---- Yes, that kind of thinking is indeed shallow. I won’t deny that. As I was at that time feel like this world is just beyond salvation. Feel like the world had too much evil lurking within it so I can’t help thinking things negatively.
“Even with this self personality like this, even with this weird mask, the one who accept me as a party member is only Jester and the rest. I once think of doing things by myself but I feel like sooner or later I would hit a dead end wall like that. I knew that those guys saw me as a woman and might think of something bad…… but this self thought that, If I don’t do this, then nothing will gonna start. But well, the result is as you can see”
“…… so that’s why Nameless-san cried? Because the one you thought as friend end up doing bad things to you?”
“It’s not like that. This self is just started to realize how valuable this self own self is because of this accident. I thought that this realization is just far too late so this self was crying upon this own self stupidity. Well, this might be a little bit too hard for you Hiroto-kun……”
“Nameless-san isn’t stupid, I know it. Because Nameless-san had realized it right? Then the answer is easy. Nameless-san just has to treat herself with more care from now on. I too, think of Nameless-san as an important friend so I also wish for Nameless-san to be more aware with her own worth”