I'm sorry that email below. I was uncivil to say goodbye, it not your fault. But it was my own fault. I agree that fear and cowardice. I live alone all time. In my dream. I want to have happy family. But true my family is me alone. I lost a loved. I lost my father, my mother, my best friend. And I afraid to love because I'm afraid of losing again. I admit that I talk to you alone. Every time I received email for you. I feel very happy. I have a smile on my face involuntarily. And waiting for your mail. And it makes me scared I'm sorry I scared myself.