Track 07 – The real self introduction
It’s over! Did you listen?
I sang properly!
After looking at everyone’s faces I could sing naturally.
Even though my mind had been blank, my singing overflowed like a flood of sound…I didn’t feel at all as if I was pushing myself or doing my best…I could sing like it was obvious!
It’s more than just being deeply moved! It’s amazing!
Look! My body’s still trembling!
Ah…I’m sorry…I did it without realizing…
Did it hurt?
I was a whole hour late…and everyone waited for me…
Everyone believes in me. The waited for me. Both my fans and the staff. That’s why I showed them my current absolute best. I only have singing so I wanted to both thank them and apologize to them through my music.
Of course, there are people who got mad and went home, and I did cause trouble for everyone. It may sound weird if I say I’m trying to compensate for it, but I want to do something and fill up the whole I dug up from now on.
It will benefit no one if I only apologized, so I’ll atone for it with my music, I will regain their trust and I’m going to have them feel various deep emotions!
It seems that the scoop pictures aren’t circulating either. It seems I was really lucky!
Ah! I have to do my best from tomorrow on as well!
Ah…so…um…would you hold my hand again?
Ah…I got to meet you again. I’m joking…
This hand of yours gave me strength. I’m not exaggerating at all. You gripped my hand tightly the whole way here, right?
Well, I also didn’t let go though.
I felt as if I wouldn’t be able to meet you again if I let go.
[02:42]
I only know your name,and I don’t know your contact adress or where you came from and what job you have. When I thought I might never see you again, I couldn’t let go of your hand.
Inside the car, I kept thinking about going back to the concert hall and about you approximately the same…no, maybe I was only thinking about you. I said I only have music, but it seems that’s not the case anymore.
I now have music and this hand of yours.
Hey, tell me about you. You know a bit about me now, right? I’m Ogawa Atsushi, 21 years old, and I’m sometimes Mike.
Ah, that’s right, you don’t know much about me as Mike.
What you knew is my name and one song or something, right?
That doesn’t count as “knowing” me.
I have a lot of songs I want you to listen to. Both the songs that I composed until now and the ones that I will from now on. Ah, somehow I feel as if I could write a new song right now.
How strange, right? Up until now I’ve been running around trying to distance myself from music but now music is so dear to me.
And…you’re also dear to me…
[04:21]
I’m sorry for saying this out of the blue. But I’m really not just going with the wave!
Maybe you’ve been feeling as if you were an older sister to me, but I don’t feel the same. If you think of me as a younger brother, I wish you would change your way of thinking right now and see me as a man.
I…did a lot of bad things to you today and I think I’ve also swung you around pretty much. I ruined your long awaited trip as well. Even so you listened to me seriously and patiently, scolded me and stayed with me until the end. If even one of those hadn’t happened, maybe I wouldn’t be here like this now.
Maybe I would have been still running away now and with one wrong step maybe I would have been handed over to the police. If it weren’t you who were by my side, I wouldn’t be here now. Maybe I wouldn’t have remembered how much I like singing. You helped me remember. That’s why it’s definitely not an exaggeration!
By chance…?
That may be right…chance..luck…destiny…maybe things like these had a part in everything. But you know…
Including all those, I’m happy that you’re here with me now. Thank you for being there then, and for staying with me.
[06:42]
I wont waver anymore.
That’s why…if possible I want you to stay close to me and watch over my change. And I want you to get to know me bit by bit. Mike and Atsushi…the both of me…
It’s okay? Really? Haha! Yes!
Then…first maybe I’ll have you listen to one song…I have a special love song.
“The live concert just ended”? That doesn’t matter. Even if I were on the verge of death, I could sing for you. Now I really feel that!
Would you listen? I’ll sing only for you.
Someday I’ll compose a song just for you. Look forward to it.
Then, you are Ogawa Atsushi’s number one fan. The only one in the world!
Track 08 – Ogawa Atsushi’s “music”
Yes, now I have my hands full with my next album. I have so many ideas that I can’t do anything about it, you see. I’m having trouble keeping it at only one.
The next album’s theme is “love”.
I’ve composed many love songs until now but this time they have a new feelin—
Hey!
You’re pretty brave to have your attention caught by other men in my own room. We’re not the same. That’s Mike, isn’t it? Your Atsushi is here.
*kiss*
I finally got a day off! Keep me company and let me be selfish sometimes! Huh? So you’re saying that?
I don’t think I’ve been that selfish with you though. I don’t know about Mike, though. But that’s his image and all.
Well, yeah. If I said i was acting him, that would be pretty much it.
Of course that both are me but when I get into work mode Mike’s switch gets pushed on and we trade places just like that.
When I look at him, I think that “Huh, Mike’s speaking”, like it’s not my business as well.
[01:25]
Well then!
What should we do today?
It’s the first time since I met you that I got a full day off! I have to use it wisely!
Yeah…it sound nice to go out together with you, but I’d wish to spend my whole day off leisurely with you, doing nothing. It’s a break, after all. Those kinds of moments are more precious to me as well.
Since I met you, I started having a clear distinction between by on and off times. When you’re not around, I’m in work mode, when you’re with me I’m in off mode. Or something?
It’s simple? But it’s really like that.
I think that I exploded like that because I’m so bad at that kind of thing.
From the day of the live concert I have been earnestly doing my best but I began thinking how much I like singing almost everyday. I’m glad I realized that. I’m glad I didn’t end everything like that. I’m really glad I met you.
So you’re praising me!
Yeah. If I have this, I don’t need anything. No matter how hard it is, I can do my best for you. It’s really something very happy to be able to do your best for someone else and not for yourself.
[03:05]
Ah, I was thinking of keeping this until the end of today, but I changed my mind.
Hey, do you remember that I said I’d compose a song for you? Actually, I’ve already made it. Are you surprised?
Haha, that’s a big success.
Do you want to hear it that much? What should I do…
I’m joking! I’ll gladly sing it for you! This song is just for you after all.
Of course, I won’t make it public.
Heh, it’s not a waste at all.
Being able to spend time doing something for you is what I find to be luxury right now.
I thought if I should use your name the title, but I made into a song something as important as you are…
Then, would you listen?