I realized that you may be very depressed and not wanting to talk. I just wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you all the time and trying to help hold your pain with you. And, yes you can do that because I did it with my son for years while I was in Thailand and not being able to go back first for being an illegal immigrant in Thailand, then, because of complex issues in the states. I ached for him and I ache with you now and pray concerning you a lot.
Maybe you think no one celebrated your birthday, but, I did. Remember when I said we should buy pastries of some kind and then eat them like we were celebrating together. Well I did. I bought this mixed berry pie and ate half of it the day of your birthday and got a little sick to my stomach because of eating so much sweets.
Just a short line to let you know I'm thinking of you and love you. There's a saying in English: "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." My absence from you has only increased the richness of how much I love you more than ever now that we're apart. I'll get through this hard time just like you will too.
Love
tom
ps let me know when you get the money