I said this seriously. I think my tone was light.
I had truly thought that I wanted to die. However, without dying, I continued to live on, and on. It was a long time, filled with regrets.
I can't save her from this kind of life. Of course I can buy her and give her work to do. I can buy her clothing, I can feed her food, and I can speak kind words to her. However, the fact that doing those kinds of things isn't saving her is something I should already understand very well. Forcing her to do things that she doesn't want to do is by no means saving her.
In that case, it would be better to end things for her.
If she became like me. If she was able to live another life after dying. It would be good if she could abandon her current life, and try her best in a new one. There's someone like that out there, without a doubt. Telling someone something like 'your hard work will pay off' is just a pretense to make you feel better about yourself.
I don't know if she's this kind of person. From my perspective, she can still keep at it. She's still young, or rather, very young, and as long as she tries her best from now on, whatever happens things will work out.
However, it's not for me to say. I was someone who was an incurable idiot even up until death.
It's something that depends on how willing she herself is. I'm not the one who gets to decide.