is not all about feeling loving. it's not about enjoying, or any subtle trying to maintain a state or of happiness because that just the mine tricking itself. i am talking about a complete openness to whatever is here. complete openness to pain, complete openness fear. completely being unprotected against any of those things that we normally think can hurt us. whether it's apparently outside of us, or in thoughts, or in feeling. it is all included. it is all existing now in what is