ou are being too hard on yourself. It was not all your fault. Your husband is not here to defend anymore. I'm sure he had another side of your story - another point of view that have explained it somewhat better than you know now-10 years later.
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I live in New York City but I grew-up on Eastern Long Island which was rural lakes, beaches woods. I came to the city in 2000. My marriage ended in 95. from 95-99 I lived near my ex-wife and kids but that was very hard to do. I needed a change.