As I said you don t have to be sorry. I'm not sure to understand all you write but I understand that you spent hard moments in your life. I sincerely hope that things are better for you now. In life you have to make with goods and bads moments but at the end I want to believe that only goods ones keep in your mind. As you said it makes experience and this is a good way to feel it. Just like you I try to make all the time goods moments. Life is too short and we have to find everyday things to do for loving our life. Simple moments, complicated moments, both are precious but the most important for me is : which who you spend this moment and how you love it. I hope you understand :-) what I write. Just like you I start english lessons ... have a good day Inonok