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You deserve to be with someone who looks at you every single day like he won a lottery and has the whole world in front of him. You deserve someone who can help you reach your dreams and can protect you from your fears. You deserve someone who will treat you with respect and will love every part of you, especially your flaws. You deserve someone who is not ashamed to love you and tells all his friends about you and saves all your selfies, whether they are good or bad, to look at when he misses you. You deserve his attention more than his phone does. You deserve effort and quality time. You deserve to be treated as his topmost priority not the last thing on his checklist. You are special and you deserve to be happy, really happy.
Begging for love is a suicide. It’s like begging a servant to serve his queen. An injustice, I say, to give your body to a man who wouldn’t dare to walk with you in public nor ever consider standing next to you at the altar.
If that's too much to ask, perhaps you are asking from a wrong person. There’s someone who can. They exist. I promise.