It is very hard to try to do two things at once.
It is very hard to love someone while simultaneously believing you must protect yourself from them or that you must always be right or that there are good people in the world and bad people in the world. Likewise it is hard to listen to your creative potential, your muse, your imagination if you simultaneously believe that you must write perfectly, or that you must know that what you’re creating now will succeed later, or that no one wants to hear from someone like you.