I was just listening to this song and while I was being captivated by its sheer beauty, I began to read your story. I then gave the song a second listen, just to make sure I was fully tuned into the words and ideas within...
Now I'm back to you, and I wanted to be the next stranger to present a song for you to listen to. Seems like you have gone through ups and downs with this Spirit Bird. I was thinking maybe now it can take you onto the next song and help you grow on your journey.
Check out Nahko Bear - "Aloha Ke Akua". I just discovered it myself and want to share it. I it reaches you. ~Cheers.