The truth is they loved each other, but I was there. Between them. Actually I knew it for a long time since we came back to live together. I found his photo on my girlfriend's ipod and ig and more. But I pretend to be blind. Until now, when I do big mistake. She show other how she love that fucking man. I have no chance to say anything. Brcause I'm the only one who makes a mess. How stupid I am. Today I can only pretend that nothing happen and pretend to be blind again. She doesn't love me anymore, I knew. But I won't blame her. Because this problem between us was made by myself. How do people call this? You'll got what you did. Right? Now I realize for this logic much. What I could do is just pretend to be fine and never talk about this because I made it by myself. Damn god I heard and saw him many times from these 4 years. But I believe her that she said she hate him. How fucking stupid I am. They think about each other everytime. Every good things are from him every story that she told me. But before I have done this mistake. She always tell me that other do good thing for her many time not him. How fucking stupid I am. Seems like I seperated them. I know I'm bad but I still love her. She also lie me for many years. That'ms why she always think that I must feel the same when I seperated with other. I am so stupid that never noticed that she always lie me. Whether because love or response. I hurt her and now she's gonna hurt me back. However, I can't do anything except "let it be" for what I dis and what she's going to do.