Although you might find it scary to express your feelings, you will notice that you will feel much better afterwards and you will continue having a nice relationship. Don’t be afraid to discuss other problems, those not related to the family, with the host parents as they could also have an effect on your relationship or your performance as an Au Pair. Dutch people are in general very open minded, so please do not be afraid to ask the advice of your host parents about (boy)friend issues, homesickness etc.