There is a sorrow in my life like a black hole that swallows my heart because I know you are not here. I become numb by trying to forget the smell of you, the warmth of your body next to mine because remembering drives me crazy. The image of you in my mind. Because as soon as I recall your face, your smell, your touch, the pain of missing you swallows me completely. It makes me sick. Some days I feel like I am drowning, like I am slowly dying, I hope that soon I will see you again. I hope that isn't in vain. I hope my heart does not grow black. You are my forever na.