Hi Som, I hope that you and your father and mother are fine. It's is very hard for me to find all the words I want to say. And I don't know if you'll understand the ones that I do. Number 1, you have to understand that I am very worried about our future together. I have been hurt and deceived before. And it is very hard for me and my children to put our hearts and our trust in the hands of someone so far away. I want you to understand that I do believe in you but I also feel fear in some things you say. Sometimes you say you want to work here in America. Or go to school. My son helps me work and Nikki goes to school already. What I need from you in our lives is to fill the empty space with love, children, and happiness. Number 2, if you only want to come here to help your family and work then better you stay in Thailand and never come here to America because I am only looking for wife, mother, and friend. If that is not enough then you should stay in Thailand not come and be with me. Number 3, of course I already told you that we would help your family and send money for them every month. Even now I send 700 us dollars, 20,000 baht. Even here that is a lot of money. Now if I come in. August I want to travel and be with you. If fathers hand is hurt then better he stay home and you and me will get a taxi driver. I understand your father pain very much because I too hurt very much. But in America different, when you are hurt you still have to work hard. Before I pay for ticket again I want to make sure that your heart is only for me. Number 4, I am sorry but I have still not heard from your friends sister. I have other person here who can do, maybe I do here instead. I don't know, I will wait just a little longer. We are running out of time. We have to do now. And if I do come in August we have to make sure it is the best time to have baby for sure. If we not have baby this time we will have to wait until next year. There are other things we should talk but this is enough for now and I think a good start. Number 5, yes I do care about mother and father but at this time by myself we can only help them a little. But I promise once you come to America and probe yourself as mother, wife, and friend we will help them a lot more. Please honey try not to be sad. I still love you I just worry so much. Always and forever, Timmy.